Feeling pretty good

So long time because Im lazy... I went to my meeting today and though I thought i wouldnt lose anything i lost 1.8 pounds for the week. My total is at 12.6. Im shocked that I lost because I ate so much crap this week. Ice cream cake, chinese. wendys. Oy! But just shows you if you stay on the points then it works. Im going to pray that I will be super good this week because I want to lose 2.4 pounds to get to 15 by next week. In two weeks im going to boston so a dream come true would be to lose 5 pounds in the next two weeks, but lets not push my luck lol. Just super relieved that I didnt gain anything. More salad, woo hoo!

Finally a good day after a shitty week

Just got back from the gym and feel sooooooooooo good! Maybe it was a bad week, but today was a great day. I looked like a tomato and all but I forced myself to go and Im so happy about it. So this is what a good day looks like :
Oatmeal = 3 points
Soup =      2 points
Bar       =   1 point
Sandwich= 7 points
Apple =      1 point
Coffee     = 1 point
Subway   = 8 points
Chips =       2 points
Pretzel =     2 points
Total = 27, daily allowance, 29 points
Workout= 30 min.

Lets hope for a good work out day tomorrow!

So not a great week mayber?

First there was the CPK, and now the gyro. Do they make flex points? Yes. But how often can you say I went over board and will use my flex points. Yesterday the entire day was so good and then, like a fat ass I had to go and eat a gyro sandwich. A perfect day ruined. Then today its moms birthday with yummy potatoes and meats and all the great Russian stuff I cant eat because we decide to dump sour cream and salt on everything. I am going with the intention to of eating only the shish kabab . That is the goal. Meat and salad. Meat and salad. Weigh in day is just 3 days away and i just have today and tomorrow to make up for the crappy week. Lets pray for a good to upcoming days and that I actually go work out when I get back.

Oh California Pizza Kitchen How I hate you!

So today I had decided that it would be a good day by starting my day with some soup for lunch since I missed breakfast. Then when I went to roth cafe to get some food after work I made the wise decision to go to CPK and order tomato basil spaghetti since it looked like one of the more healthy items and I was tired of salad. Well needless to say when I came home and looked up the nutritional value of the meal turns out it was work 25 points!!!!!! I think I will be writing CPK to ask why they find it necessary to include an entires mean calorie worth in one meal. For those of you that dont remember I only have 29 points for the entire day. So basically today sucks. I considered for 2 seconds just to not eat for the rest of the day, but then realized that that would never work so went to the sac  got some salad and put it in the fridge for dinner later tonight. One more time say it with me people, I HATE CPK. ok now I feel better. How to prevent this in the future? Im calculating all the point values for every meal at CPK. That will be all. Tomorrow will be a better day =]

Today was a good day

Drum roll please..... The scale says that I lost 3.2 pounds this week! Yay. =]
That makes my total 9 pounds in three weeks. I cant wait till next week when  hopefully, I will finally get to the ten pounds mark! Goals for this week, moving more and not binge eating tonight when I have to stay up all night. No more to say right now, just super thrilled that today was a good day.

And the horrible cravings begin.

To my fellow friends and readers,

         This blog will be first and formally my therapy during the journey Im trying to take to lose 80 pounds. Shocker as it may be, yes I wish to be thinner! I have decided that the freshman 15 (HA 30!) , stress, hormones, and all the like are no longer sufficient excuses to not closing my mouth.
          Thanks to the support and encouragement of my co workers , friends and family members, babyshka especially who told me I need to stop eating, and years of self loathing, I have decided to go on weight watchers. It has now been three weeks. As a way to keep myself honest and to not lie to all of you I plan on being honest about when I screw up, and when I do well. Isn't that the point of therapy anyway?
          My original weight was 233.4, and after two weeks of dieting I got down to 227.6 . Yes people every . some thing counts because thats one less cookie I didn't eat! Tomorrow will be my third weigh in, and just like the last two times I pray to God that the little piece of chocolate I ate wont ruin all week of eating oatmeal. Overall it hasn't been to horrible, in fact if anything its been encouraging but right now at this moment I would kill for a burger and nice juicy dipped in oil fries, know what I mean? But instead I will eat an apple, stop complaining and fill my brain with biology. Thanks for reading, and tomorrow I will post the results of my third weigh in. Wish me luck!

Y. Bel